So
there it is, gracing, well haunting actually, yet another house.
Only this time, I reasoned, only one child was left at home. Surely
this time the table might know some dignity, with just proper
and pretty things atop its newly smooth and varnished surface.
Flourishing
house plants. Candlesticks. Perhaps some pottery, tasteful and
artistic of course.
Yes,
that is so. There are plants and things made of wax and pieces
of art.
There
are also books and unread magazines, old mail and bills to pay.
What my children once did as a matter of habit, my husband and
I now do. We toss and stack things on that long-suffering old
table, groaning under the weight of our messy and overflowing
lives.
Now there was a point when I was
young and childless ( and under-employed ) that I vowed to and
did a pretty good job of keeping my living space clean and cleared
out. Of course, I was more than 25 years younger, was living on
a graduate student income, and had 25 fewer years of accumulation.
I had a couple of pictures, a few pots and pans, and a half a
closet full of clothes at best.
I was never going to live in the
kind of, now that I think of it, very nearly bohemian and often
embarrassing clutter, I grew up in, with its shells and rocks
and flea market finds, some of which, I must say, turned out to
be quite valuable.
My life and my surroundings would
be different of course, simple and orderly and serene.
Funny how that doesn’t seem
to be the way it turns out for those of us who thought that we
could escape our stuff.
Like my friend Bonnie, who told
me how while her father was an elder in the Mormon community she
grew up in, and her mother quite the respected and prominent person
as well, beyond the prim and proper parlor of her childhood home
were rooms and rooms and closets stacked with yellowed newspaper
clippings that her mother spent hours clipping every day. Couldn’t
ever get herself to sort through and throw them out. Just let
them pile up higher and higher.
My father hated that his wife
couldn’t manage the mess, Bonnie told me. But he could never
stop her from making it. That was the one thing, she had come
to see, that he couldn’t control.
And now Bonnie, who is the resident
property manager for a low income housing complex, lives herself
in perpetual physical chaos, cheerfully making her way through
the uncontrolled mounds of papers and toys and New Age icons that
she has allowed to take over her own apartment.
And, as one famous columnist always
writes, so it goes.
Over the years, the only times
our household has even come close to any semblance of Zen Buddhist
or Thoreau-like simplicity has been just before and after a major
move Every few years we would have to make choices, give things
away, throw things away.
Our decision to make do with less
was not, I will admit, an ecological one or a spiritual one for
the most part. It was an economic one. The less we had, the less
to take it with us.
But now, considering we have now
lived in the same house for nearly a decade, the longest time
ever, with no plans for an immediate relocation, one can only
imagine the state of overflow now.
I take whatever comfort I can
in the indisputable fact that my family is not alone in our inability
to get a grip.
As comedian George Carlin observed,
the essence of life, is trying to find a place to put all your
stuff.
One Georgia father interviewed
for a series of articles on “stuff” ended up doing
what so many folks are doing, leasing a storage unit for the family’s
excess: TVs, books, files, furniture he admitted that they had
just accumulated: your mother’s stuff, your daughter’s
stuff, your own stuff, stuff, stuff, stuff.
It has been pointed out frequently
that Americans are overweight in higher numbers than other cultures.
It now can be said that we also have more possessions than any
civilization that has ever existed, and, as reporter Jim Auchhmutey
tells us, have become gluttons for stuff. So much so, he discovered,
that we have created an entire industry to indulge our appetite
for conspicuous retention.
Since the first mini warehouses
appeared during the late 1960’s, these units have spread,
he discovered, coast to coast like burger franchises. There
are 32,000 of them now. Including new ones up this way, along
Highway 400, and on side roads where roadside fruit stands once
stood proving that mountain folk too are troubled by too little
space for too many things we can’t give up.
Now some -- if not most of these
things are not heirlooms or treasures, but just the too many toasters,
blenders, televisions, and in my case for sure clothes that we
felt we absolutely needed or absolutely wanted, purchased in one
or another chain store along the way. It is certainly true, in
my case, that for much of my life I never saw a store I didn’t
like, or couldn’t find something to buy from. As my husband
often reminds me it now takes at least two closets to fit all
the outfits I just had to have.
After all, as one of my ministerial
sisters told me just yesterday at a conference on eco-feminism
and simple living when I admired her sweater and just had to know
where to buy one like it, there’s beauty to be considered
as well.
It
is just so easy to have too much stuff, according to psychologists
who are studying excessive shopping, collecting and hording.
In
centuries past, they point out, most people couldn’t read.
There were no books or magazines or junk mail to stack up. What
most people owned could fit in a small trunk or wardrobe, so there
were no closets at all.
There
were no machines, these scholars of clutter point out, so we didn’t
need or own CDs, cassettes, game cartridges, filing cabinets and
shelves.
So
here we are, surrounded by things to buy and things to play with
and things to just hold on to and enjoy.
A
few among us may have no interest or need to gather things. Who
only wish to have a place to sleep, a way to cook ( at least once
in a while) , a light to read by, and a way to listen to music.
But most of us when pressed, have at some time or another collected
some thing. Or a lot of things.
We
may not sweat the small stuff, but we sure love finding and keeping
it.
Some
of us collect those few things we are for some reason drawn to--
like stamps or collector’s coins, or in my daughter’s
case, toy pigs of sort and size.
For
me, it used to be things with butterflies on them, but for the
last decade it’s been snow globes, not the fancy ones sold
in gift stores, but the cheap ones to be found in every airport
in the world, that run out of water and look pitiful, but I can’t
seem to part with any of them, boxes and boxes of them.
Some
folks seem to save random things, as one among us wrote me, like
an antique demi- tasse cup and some 1920’s sheet music given
to her by a friend, or metal wind up toys bought from those “ten
cent stores” that are now of business. The tattered children’s
books she once loved. Or as she confesses, “silly things”
a tiny red plastic monkey from the top of a sonic drinking cup,
or the head of Sylvester the Cat which had a prominent place in
her spice rack til all the features faded.
Why
do we keep so much stuff? Again, folks who are studying the psychology
a behind hobbies and collecting say they believe that the urge
is primal.
We
used to be hunters and gatherers, so we were ingrained to find
and hold on to stuff. It is hard-wired in us.
And
besides, it makes us happy. It makes us feel secure and safe.
On
a spiritual level, things can be life-enhancing. As Mary
Ann Brussat wrote in her book on Everyday Spirituality,
we tend to think of things as outside and separate from ourselves.
But when we read the world spiritually, we discover that things
often set us on pathways that lead us back to the meaningfulness
of our lives. Things, she believes, house our feelings,
memories, and connections with others, both living and dead. When
we regard things this way, our interactions with them become
spiritual exercises.
As
Eliza Calvert Hall wrote in her book A Quilter’s Wisdom,
I’ve had a heap of comfort all my life making quilts
and now in my old age I won’t take a fortune for them. You
see some folks have albums to put folks’ pictures in to
remember them by, and some folks have a book to write down the
things that happen every day so they won’t forget them,
but honey these quilts are my albums and my diaries... I just
spread my quilts and study over them and it’s like going
back fifty or sixty years and living my life over again.
Things
punctuate the key moments of our lives and serve as a reminder
of what we value.
Not
always of course, if collecting and keeping things is masking
a depression, a fear of deprivation or poverty, a lack of energy
to sort through and clean up our houses and our lives. Or the
absence of basic love and affection, whose hole we can fill with
the accumulation of objects. Bought and paid for.
Collecting
can, someone said, become a substitute for living.
For
example the fictionalized William Randolph Hearst in the classic
film Citizen Kane, who filled his castle with expensive
art and furniture, when all he really wanted at the end of his
lonely life was his childhood sleigh “ rosebud” and
the family that went with it.
There
is a kind of collecting things that turns into chronic cluttering
,and even toxic hoarding, which is a behavior that needs professional
intervention. But at some point or another, most of us look around
and are horrified by the amount of stuff we have and no longer
use or need. Things we were convinced we couldn’t live without,
or things that we once had use for but no longer do.
Or
we finally just do a wholesale purge of our accumulated stuff,
for example when my parents divorced and my father wanted to rent
out the house they had shared, so he paid someone to remove everything
from the basement, including my beloved Ginny doll and my brother’s
baseball card collection, losses I will admit, we are still recovering
from.
From
my experience working in a homeless ministry, the holiday season
and the weeks afterward seem to be a time when folks go through
a frenzy of clearing out, which turns into a kind of dumping.
When piles of tattered linens, banged up and rusted cookware,
chipped dishes, and just plain junk appeared in boxes and bags
on the front steps and in our halls. Forlorn, ugly, abandoned
things left unceremoniously in the hope that someone less fortunate
would find them useful, even pretty.
I
have wanted to put a sign up saying don’t just dump your
stuff, and don’t give us things you wouldn’t have
yourself, at least at some time in your life.
Just
this past week, Japanese Buddhists observed “National Needle
Day” to honor all the needles which have been killed in
action over the past year. Perhaps we too should plan an annual
observation for things that have worn out, expressing gratitude
for them and for the spirit of the universe that is present in
or through them. Or as someone else suggested, have a party for
our things, gathering all our gadgets and giving them a good dusting
and cleaning. Giving out exceptional service awards to signify
gratitude to the things that have served us and the stuff
that has given us pleasure and preserved our memories.
Of
course we need to be more mindful of accumulating things for the
sake of material security and prestige, mindful as our Unitarian
Universalist study action resolution last year declared -that
irresponsible consumption endangers our future as it wastes raw
materials and precious resources, depriving people in other countries
as well as our own future generations. That our commitment
to justice and equality for all includes carefully challenging
the level of our own consumption.
As
ecologist Sharon Parks counsels, using the term used by
members of her faith community, in our choices about accumulating
things, we must learn to recognize what “cumbers”
us-- a Quaker term for that which burdens us, that which is
just consuming-- a definition of which is complete destruction.
Of our spirits and of the earth we live on.
Given
who we are as a group of people living in this mountain community,
we have already made some conscious choices about simplified living.
From what you have told and written me, as a matter of fact, our
attachment to things comes down to those precious books,
photo albums, family oil paintings, letters that hold a sacred
place in our lives and our hearts.
Our
concerns about “stuff” seem to be about the emotional
“stuff” we work always to be rid of: ill health and
pain, resentment and anger at past hurts, memories of unpleasant
experiences, negative attitudes, and general mind clutter.
Still
we have a responsibility to look outside our own household and
church walls to promote the tenets of what Transcendentalist Henry
David Thoreau called for in his book, Walden- with his
heartfelt plea to simplify, simplify.
That
we strive for conscientious consumption, uncluttered domestic
life, contact with nature, social service and philanthropy, and
material contentment.
That we live consciously
That we live deliberately
That we live sustainably
That we live within our means
That we live with beauty.
That we live in harmony with others
and in harmony with the earth.
Rev.
Marti Keller, ©10 February 2002